BELOVED

Алдартай, агуу зохиолч, мөн нобелийн шагналт гэдгийг нь дурсахгүй байж болохгүй байх, Toni Morrison-ий бичсэн Beloved номны талаарх сэтгэгдэл.


Энэ номыг 2 дахь удаагаа уншиж байж дуусгалаа. Эхний удаа дуусгаагүй,, сүнс гэдэг хэсэгт нь ч очоогүй ээ.. Төгсгөлийг нь уншиж дуусгах гээд их догдолж их ч хүлээсэн. Тэгээд өчигдөр нэг юм шөнө сэрээд уншиж дуусгасан. Бас болоогүй өөр номны талд нь оруулаад орхиж. Миний төсөөлж байсан шиг хүчтэй, агуу сэтгэл хөдөлгөсөн өрнөлтэй, түүнээс ч илүү байж чадсан. Ингээд номны төгсгөл хэсгийг маш их таалагдсан,, бас бүхэл номныхоо холбоос, тайлал болсон, сэтгэлийг маань үнэхээр хөдөлгөсөн болохоор орууллаа.

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[өө тийн,, номны эхлэлд

Sixty Million
and more

гэсэн байгаа. Хүнийг үнэхээр татдаг, pulls u in..]


THERE is a loneliness that can be rocked. Arms crossed, knees drawn up; holding, holding on, this motion, unlike a ship's, smooths and contains the rocker. It's an inside kind--wrapped tight like skin. Then there is a loneliness that roams. No rocking can hold it down. It is alive, on its own. A dry and spreading that makes the sound of one's own feet going seem to come from a far-off place.

Everybody knew what she was called, but nobody anywhere knew her name. Disremembered and unaccounted for, she cannot be lost because no one is looking for her, and even if they were, how can they call her if they don't know her name? Although she has claim, she is not claimed. In the place where long grass opens, the girl waited to be loved and cry shame erupts into her separate parts, to make it easy for the chewing laughter to swallow her all away.

It was not a story to pass on.

They forgot her like a bad dream. After they made up their tales, shaped and decorated them, those that saw her that day on the porch quickly and deliberately forgot her. It took longer for those who had spoken to her, lived with her, fallen in love with her, to forget, until they realized they couldn't remember or repeat a single thing she said, and began to believe that, other than what themselves were thinking, she hadn't said anything at all. So, in the end, they forgot her too. Remembering seemed unwise. They never knew where or why she crouched, or whose was the underwater face she needed like that. Where the memory of the smile under her chin might have been and was not, a latch latched and lichen attached its apple-green bloom to the metal. What made her think her fingernails could open locks the rain rained on.

It was not a story to pass on.

So they forgot her. Like an unpleasant dream troubling sleep. Occasionally, however, the rustle of a skirt hushes when they wake, and the knuckles brushing a cheek in sleep seem to belong to the sleeper. Sometimes the photograph of a close friend or relative-- looked at too long--shifts, and something more familiar than the dear face itself moves there. They can touch it if they like, but don't, because they know things will never be the same if they do.

This is not a story to pass on.

Down by the stream in back of 124 her footprints come and go,come and go. They are so familiar. Should a child, an adult place his feet in them, they will fit. Take them out and they disappear again as though nobody ever walked there.
By and by all trace is gone, and what is forgotten is not only the footprints but the water too and what it is down there. The rest is weather. Not the breath of the disremembered and unaccounted for , but wind in the eaves, or spring ice thawing too quickly. Just weather. Certainly no clamor for a kiss.

Beloved.


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Энэ номны талаар сонирхсон чинь Toni Morrison-ий номнуудаас хамгийн сайн,, тэмдэглүүштэй номонд ордог юм байна. [Гэхдээ зохиолч,талаархууд нь таалагдах, унших шалтгааны аль нь ч болоогүй юм шүү.] Өмнө нь Сула гээд номыг нь уншиж байсан, ер нь энэ зохиолч эмэгтэйн дүрүүд нь үнэхээр гайхалтай, хуудаснаасаа амилаад хорвоог туулж байгаа мэт санагдуулдаг. Нэг өдөр, нэг л өдөр мөрөөдөл болоод Африкт очоод энэ дүрүүдтэй тааралдвал би лав гайхахгүймдаг..

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